Is there seriously something wrong with me?
Saturday I went to a going away party for a guy that works with Jason. I had a blast. I enjoyed laughing and cutting up with everyone there and to my knowledge I was well received.
Today Jason went to work and his female coworker said to him: "she's (me) a lot of fun." Jason said to his female coworker: "yea but she can be a real smart ass." To which his coworker said: "you're a smart ass too, big deal". He says: "yea but she can be a REAL smart ass" She said: "no it was all good, we laughed, cut up and had a good time."
Ok, so one of two things just happened. Either he was editing what she really said about me or he was making excuses for me where none were needed. I mean, if even the man who loves me feels he has to make excuses for my "bad behavior" then maybe I should consider going to "charm school". I thought I got along well with everyone there. I made friends with another coworker's wife, even exchanged phone numbers with her and we're now FB friends...I mean really once you solidify a friendship with FB it's official...right?! Jeez, this is just too much for my tiny little brain to process. I say things, often without thinking. But if I thought I was offensive in anyway it would really bother me until I said I'm sorry and made you hear how truly upset I was about it. And ANYONE who has ever had me genuinely angry at them can attest that there is a DISTINCT difference in me being flip and me being hateful.
There must be something wrong with either me or Tucson. I have never (to my knowledge) experienced this before. But since I moved to Arizona I've had a difficult time making lasting friendships. I admit I can be somewhat of a flake especially here recently. But it's not like I flake on lunch or coffee, just a night out drinking. But, being that I'm not a big "drinker" I'm not sure why this comes as some huge surprise. If I asked you to go skiing and you don't like how you feel the next day, you'd probably go once in a while because you have fun occasionally doing it, but since you're not a professional and don't do it all the time, you probably don't feel like walking much the next day. Cut to me, a day after drinking, feels like I've hit the slopes AND every tree on the way down. But, I'll take one for the team here and there, and I'll do it with a smile on my face and have fun while I'm at it, but don't get pissed when I bail the other 38 times. Just like when I ask you to go to the movies and you hate watching movies or can't get a sitter I won't get mad. Give and take, is that too hard to ask for in a friend? I apparently fail at one or both of those qualities and add in my smart ass comments it's too much to bear.
Seems odd to me that the people I grew up with seem to think I'm funny but to my own boyfriend I'm just a big smart ass....maybe they just humor me...or maybe I've just been lied to my entire life....
**Cheers to my friends from P'cola** Thanks for the laughs. I'm genuinely sorry if you ever found me to be insulting, although I hope and I pray that I'm just misunderstood HERE and you all truly did just "get me".
If you need me, I'll be in the corner licking my wounds and eating some humble pie. Confidence is good, apparently I've been confused. *blow my head off*
~M
P.S. **static**
Note from the editor:
Since writing this blog I have spoken with Jason about his need to excuse my sense of humor before it came into question. He said that he didn't mean to hurt my feelings but that he was trying to be helpful "in case" I just so happened to have accidentally said something which was taken the wrong way. Although I still heard an insult hidden inside his explanation, I tried to hear where he was coming from. According to him: "most females do not say whatever witty thing pops into their head, that is something a guy would do." Which is clearly evidenced by this explanation as most women realize when they are eating their foot for lunch and decide to STOP TALKING. I have decided to take all of this as a compliment. He wants them to like me. He just has a funny way of showing it! *groan*
So your not alone doll. It must be a Matson thing cuz I get exactly the same reaction on several occasions. So be it that we can enjoy ourselves in the company of perfect strangers and then our other halfs maybe are jealous that it's so simple for us. Anywho, your my babe and things will get better! Miss and love ya cuz!!!!! And you know who this is!!!
ReplyDeleteHmmm, not good.
ReplyDelete@DTBH: I know...I was in tears!
ReplyDelete@A, I DO know who, and I LOVE you 2! :)